Thursday, February 17, 2011

Tears

Downward spiral...tears. Lots of tears. I cried on the way home from Bible study tonight...no rhyme or reason, just BAM! All of a sudden my vision is blurry with tears and they start to fall down my face. I have cried myself to sleep twice this week. I woke up last night with my pillow damp, the flow still going.

I am trying to stop the spiral. Listening to upbeat music. Working, working, working. Doing whatever I can to think those upbeat thoughts. I know what comes next...I am trying so hard to divert it.

Hopelessness, darkness, helplessness, until it gets so bleak......I am trying, but the tears won't stop.

4 comments:

Rachel said...

He is close to the brokenhearted. I'm so sorry. All I know is that HE knows the big picture and what is coming next. And I know that He cares for me - some days that is enough.

Shell said...

Sending you prayers.

M said...

Thinking of you and hope you feel back to yourself soon. I think it's important to let yourself feel whatever emotions you need to feel... just remember that lots of people love you and I'm always available for a cry/vent/laugh/whatever session when you need me.

Foursons said...

He is the hospital for the brokenhearted. Hang in there girl, this too shall pass.